Disappearing Act

Well I guess I have some explaining to do. I haven't written in a month. Let me tell you a little of what had happened. It’s like this, I signed up for a dating site, started talking a guy that lives way the hell away but the thing is he likes women who are big. BBW’s they apparently call us (Big Beautiful Women). I thought this was really strange at first like I couldn’t get my mind wrapped around the idea of someone finding all those extra folds and jiggly bits sexy.


But then the more I thought about it and the more we talked, the more I began to think that maybe even if I am not at the weight I want to be at and even though I still want to lose more weight, where I am right now is still sexy (maybe not to everyone, but some and maybe even myself) I have curves and beautiful soft skin that is touchable and huggable.

I still want to lose my extra pounds, but I’d always wanted to get down to that crazy low weight I was in high school for some nostalgic reason. But if I remember correctly I didn’t look healthy then either. I looked pale, my face was too thin and I had no shape to my body. I also had little strength, carrying my extra weight around all these years (living in apartment buildings with no elevator!) has caused me to gain muscle.

So I guess I kind of got off the band wagon and walked around the idea of staying where I am. But I’ve decided to get back on track and start losing more weight. I’m beautiful no matter what my size.