Sweat, Dance and Five Pounds Gone

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I've somehow managed to lose weight the past two weeks without really trying.  Makes me wonder what will happen when I try.  I've lost five pounds and hope to lose another five by the end of another two weeks.

I have insecurities about exercising.  Even in my own home.  I feel like I should be alone and I rarely am.  I don't like sweating, in fact as one who sweats more than the average Joe I hate it even more.  I heard you can get botox to stop the sweating but my mom went for botox for her migraines and she said that it was very painful and she felt like her face was frozen in one expression for quite some time.  I don't think I'll go with botox.  I've tried the clinical deodorants but I don't see a difference there either.

So I'll just have to deal with my sweat and get used to the fact that exercise can't always be unseen.  That sometimes by boyfriend will see me sweat and I'll have to deal and he actually enjoys it (the sicko XP).  But for the sake of another five pounds I think I'll get my iPod out in the morning and dance around the house like a fool if only for twenty minutes.

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This is about Halloween...

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Usually I am stoked about Halloween. Usually I can’t wait in JULY to start planning my costume (this year I started a plan in May). But that plan fell by the wayside and this year I’m just not feeling the Halloween buzz.

Maybe it’s because I lived in a house last year that had a ton of kids visiting for treats and this year in a basement apartment I won’t be handing out candy.

Mainly it’s because at Halloween all the good costumes for scaring people are mostly for men and all the women’s costumes that are any good are skimpy and sized os or one size fits most. One size does not fit most. It doesn’t fit me, I barely fit the plus size costumes which are at about a 12-16 size. So I tend to make my own costume, which is fine, but can get expensive if you can’t find what you need at your local thrift stores.

Take last year; I was a bee, or Abby (that’s my name for those of you who don’t know). Finding a bee costume in my size was nearly impossible so I made one from a sewing pattern. It was not the easiest as the costume pattern I liked was too small too and I had to alter the pattern.

Anyways I guess I had planned on losing weight by the next Halloween as I usually do and as usual I did not and couldn’t buy a costume this year once again. It’s really disappointing after a while of years gone by wishing you could lose some weight but not losing any – if not gaining.

I’m recycling last year’s costume and being a ZomBee, (cute eh?) this year. It’s not what I really wanted but it will do. And this is a really depressing post….

But I am excited about Christmas already!! I have big plans! BIG! Lol. So don’t worry I may not have great expectations for Halloween but Christmas will be great! And frugal! (I’ll write about it in a few weeks.)

Happy Halloween!

Awkward Moments

 

 

YOU know the times.  When someone asks you, "have you lost weight? YOU look like you have."  But truthfully you've gained weight...like twenty pounds.  How could you look like you have lost when you've gained?  How long has it been since you last seen this person?  Are they blind, nice or mean?

But what do you say? Lie and say yes?  Tell the truth and hold on for that awkward silence?

I personally tell people no I've gained, but the person usually saying so is my mother. *awkward?*

What do you say when someone thinks you have lost weight but really you haven't or even worse you have gained?  Let me know in the comments.




Personal update:  I haven't been writing on here for like a hundred and two reasons that I'm not getting into because they are all excuses.  Mainly I gained weight this summer, like twenty or thirty pounds.  I'm down four as of this morning but I don't know why because aside from walking a bit I haven't done much to lose weight.  But I'm glad that my incline in weight has faltered. 

And as for losing the weight on my own I've come to the realization that I can't, not with the amounts of prescriptions I'm on that I can't not be on.  They increase appetite and make you tired.  I was on worse ones when I got to this weight and beyond so the decrease in those has helped a lot in my weight loss but I am still on them.  And I will never be off of them.  So I'm going back to a surgeon and hopefully he/she will approve me for weight loss surgery.  I still have no idea when the date for the initial appointment will be so this is a long way off in the future.  In the meantime I plan to continue trying to lose the weight on my own. 

It's getting more difficult as the pains in my body have increased.  Exercise is next to impossible but walking seems to be improving.  I tried yoga in the summer and almost died afterwards from muscle tension...isn't it supposed to relax you??  What are your suggestions for low impact exercises that don't leave you in huge amounts of pain?  Again let me know in the comments and I will try and write again in the next few days :)  Let's see if I can!