A whole year and a month and the chaos theory

Holy Crow! I didn’t even see the year go by.  Successful Loser has been up for over a year now!  You think I’d have made an entry about this but I guess things got out of hand and I lost sight of this site.

Let’s talk about new beginnings.  I feel as though my life is going through some tough times right now.  Even though I have a lot of opportunities going on for me right now [like this 20 week program I’m in to help young people find and keep work], and I’m living pretty much on my own [my sister is my roommate].  I still feel as though there is a weight other than gravity on my shoulders, pinning me down to the ground so I can’t get up and do what it is I really want to do.

What I really want to do is live on my own entirely, lose at least another fifty pounds, write for a living, and live happily ever after.   

So I feel as though I need a new beginning, a fresh start, a pick-me-up to pick-me-up!  But what do I do?  I thought about moving, but I can’t really afford to do that.  But I moved the furniture in my room around to try and compensate…didn’t really help but at least there’s less stuff in my room…now I just need to clean up the floor which is covered in the stuff I started throwing out. 

I think I need to not only set realistic, obtainable goals, but I need to write them down and I definitely need to follow through on them.  No more bs I need to buckle down if I want to get my life started. 

So you may be thinking, what’s this got to do with weight loss?  EVERYTHING!  When your life is in chaos, last thing on your mind is weight loss.  In fact I’ve eaten so badly the past two months due to work, stress, new situations, and of course the boyfriend effect* that I’ve lost all sight of losing weight and the goal therein to lose weight.  So time to get back on track and realize my dreams.  No one is going to get me there, only I can.

So if I get all of these things in order, I will feel less chaotic and will have control over my life and weight loss once again.  But I’m going to work on the weight loss while I work on the chaos at the same time.

Hey, it’s just chaos. *shrug*

*More on the Boyfriend Effect in the next blog entry!