Minor Delay

It's like this, I made the goal to start walking more, and it will not stop raining this month!  I've had maybe five walks since I made that goal.  I'm not very proud I'll tell you that.  I've been steadily staying the same weight for the past little while now and I'm starting to get a wee bit peeved.  I have no one to blame but myself though, I haven't been exercising and my diet has gone crazy.  I'm not hungry very often anymore and tend to forget to eat until I'm starving and then I get to the fridge and everything looks yuck! 

This is going to sound strange, but I don't think I actually like food.  I think I've learned to hate it.  It isn't appealing to me anymore.  I eat now just to stop the hunger pains.  Which I know isn't good because my body thinks I'm starving it and is going into storage mode.  It's like I need a guide to show me what foods are out there.  Maybe I should pick up a vegetable cook book or something, learn how to make good things.  Any suggestions?  I've always wanted to try artichokes.  I bought some once but didn't know what to do with them so they didn't get eaten.  What a waste.  What's your favourite vegetable and how do you like it best.

Mine is green pepper raw, cut up with a bit of salt or dip.  yum!

Disappearing Act

Well I guess I have some explaining to do. I haven't written in a month. Let me tell you a little of what had happened. It’s like this, I signed up for a dating site, started talking a guy that lives way the hell away but the thing is he likes women who are big. BBW’s they apparently call us (Big Beautiful Women). I thought this was really strange at first like I couldn’t get my mind wrapped around the idea of someone finding all those extra folds and jiggly bits sexy.


But then the more I thought about it and the more we talked, the more I began to think that maybe even if I am not at the weight I want to be at and even though I still want to lose more weight, where I am right now is still sexy (maybe not to everyone, but some and maybe even myself) I have curves and beautiful soft skin that is touchable and huggable.

I still want to lose my extra pounds, but I’d always wanted to get down to that crazy low weight I was in high school for some nostalgic reason. But if I remember correctly I didn’t look healthy then either. I looked pale, my face was too thin and I had no shape to my body. I also had little strength, carrying my extra weight around all these years (living in apartment buildings with no elevator!) has caused me to gain muscle.

So I guess I kind of got off the band wagon and walked around the idea of staying where I am. But I’ve decided to get back on track and start losing more weight. I’m beautiful no matter what my size.