Epic Fail

YUP! I fail. Epic fail. I ate (not all by myself mind you) a box of chocolates. Chocolate covered cherries, which next to chocolate covered strawberries and peanut butter and chocolate cups, is my ultimate chocolate weakness. My nemisis.

If I'd just had one or maybe two, that'd be okay. But I'm pretty sure I ate close to seven. O_O!! I know terrible. Weightcare talks about how you have to do instinctive eating which is a skill we are all born with but that we lose over time. Sometimes this can be caused by the fact that parents won't let their kids leave the table until they've eaten everything on their plate. Or it's just that we've over-indulged one too many times and soon enough we don't know when we're hungry we just eat because we're bored or depressed, or even happy.

So allow me to analyze. My day up until the Epic Fail, was a pretty crappy one. I called in sick to work for the third day in a row because of this migraine, my migraine turned into an ear ache, and my anxiety was high. I haven't left the house in more than a few days and so the thought of going outside was/is getting high up in the stress category. So what we've got here is a low mood and that can lead to eating out of boredom/depression. What did I do about it? I ate the chocolate. What should I have done about it? Anything else. Anything else to get my mind working and away from thoughts of chocolate. I could've knit, read, updated this blog. I could've even cooked myself a healthful meal because I hadn't actually eaten in a while and that could also be a trigger to eating that box of chocolates.

I know the warning sign but I didn't see them. I'll have to talk about that tomorrow when I see the dietician at the clinic.

The positive side to all of this? I realized what I did wrong and I can work to change it for the future.