Epic Fail

YUP! I fail. Epic fail. I ate (not all by myself mind you) a box of chocolates. Chocolate covered cherries, which next to chocolate covered strawberries and peanut butter and chocolate cups, is my ultimate chocolate weakness. My nemisis.

If I'd just had one or maybe two, that'd be okay. But I'm pretty sure I ate close to seven. O_O!! I know terrible. Weightcare talks about how you have to do instinctive eating which is a skill we are all born with but that we lose over time. Sometimes this can be caused by the fact that parents won't let their kids leave the table until they've eaten everything on their plate. Or it's just that we've over-indulged one too many times and soon enough we don't know when we're hungry we just eat because we're bored or depressed, or even happy.

So allow me to analyze. My day up until the Epic Fail, was a pretty crappy one. I called in sick to work for the third day in a row because of this migraine, my migraine turned into an ear ache, and my anxiety was high. I haven't left the house in more than a few days and so the thought of going outside was/is getting high up in the stress category. So what we've got here is a low mood and that can lead to eating out of boredom/depression. What did I do about it? I ate the chocolate. What should I have done about it? Anything else. Anything else to get my mind working and away from thoughts of chocolate. I could've knit, read, updated this blog. I could've even cooked myself a healthful meal because I hadn't actually eaten in a while and that could also be a trigger to eating that box of chocolates.

I know the warning sign but I didn't see them. I'll have to talk about that tomorrow when I see the dietician at the clinic.

The positive side to all of this? I realized what I did wrong and I can work to change it for the future.

Weightcare Plan

I want to be able to run

So this fancy fandangled plan that I'm on is at the local clinic and I believe it's located at other clinics in Canada. It's called weightcare. Basically I have a team on my weightlosing side. I have a doctor, a dietician (not a nutritionist), and a personal trainer. All three of them work with me in half an hour increments so many times in the month. Say one week I'll see the doctor, then the next week the dietician and the trainer, then the next week just the dietician etc. Also they have this metabolic rate analyser machine thing. You breathe into this mask for just over ten minutes and then it calculates how much you burn when you're resting. Like sleeping or doing the dishes or watching tv. When I started mine was really high and I was like what? Because I'd always figured that my metabolism was crap. Nope apprently I just eat too much crap. lol. Last time I was at weightcare they did another one of these tests and my metobolic resting rate thing has gone down, they said that I can get it back up just by exercising/doing muscle work more.

Exercise has been the hard part for me. I just don't like it. I did do 45mins on Friday of last week which is amazing because that's like more than I did all of last month! Like I said in my last post I have to step up my game. I've had a migraine for the past three days though, so I haven't been exercising much. Hopefully I will feel a bit better later tonight and can at least get ten minutes of muscle work in. Any little bit helps.

I've been doing it for 12 weeks and so far have lost a pound a week, so 12 lbs. I'm down to 258lbs. They were aiming for 2-2.5lbs a week but a little lost is better than a little gained.

I also have to work on the eating portion of the process. There's these little daycards that I'm supposed to use. When I first started I used them all the time and now not so much. I don't know why. I just forget! I'm such a bad loser lol.

I'll go fill out one of those cards now.